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Shadows

When I was at a retreat recently in the beautiful hills of North Carolina, I was able to spend a lot of quiet time with God. It was so refreshing! And because of that quiet time with God, I have an awesome revelation to share with you today! If you haven’t read my “Stupid Blind Beetle” blog, please do! This blog was revealed to me right after that one! Guess what? When I ask God to speak to me… He does! When I sit still enough to hear Him, He reveals all sorts of things to me that just blows my mind that I never saw it before! This is one of those moments. After I quickly jotted down some notes that would be the foundation for the stupid blind beetle blog, I began to nestle into the presence of God more. I knew God wouldn’t leave me hanging with the thought of fighting battles in ministry over and over, and the unavoidable temptation of sin that surrounds us each day. I looked out into the beautiful yard full of matured maple trees while the rain stopped, the sun began to shine! While I sat there, taking in the beauty of God’s creation, I noticed shadows start to form around me. The contrast was deepened by the light from the sun. The brighter the sun shined, the crisper the edges of the shadows became. And the more the shadows looked exactly like the tree above it. I could pick out each leaf that went to each shadow by the time the sun was completely exposed.

Like our sins, until we expose them… they just blend into our daily lives. They are unrecognizable at times. But, when we step into the light and ask God to reveal our sins, His light shines so bright the sin is very evident, allowing us to see the behavior that is the result of the lie or belief Satan has convinced us was true, and we are convicted in a deep way. Ephesians 5:11 says, “Take no part in unfruitful works of darkness, but instead expose them.”

 Sometimes when we are standing next to someone who’s sin is exposed by light… they block the light from us and our sin or shadows do not seem as bad or apparent. This is something I struggle with. Luke 6:41 says, “Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?” I get so caught up sometimes in looking at other people’s sin because it has been exposed, that I ignore my own sin and it is kept hidden away. Don’t get me wrong, there were times in my life that my sin was what I know some people would compare theirs to in order to feel better about their own sins… but now I am in a different stage of sin. They are sometimes not as clear or apparent. Sometimes they are easier to hide or overlook. But, when I ask God to reveal them to me…. He always does! Why am I so fearful of the light shining on my sin to reveal my shadows? Why do I avoid God when I know I have unrepentant sin in my life? Well, the short answer would be pride. 

I believe the reason we have fear of  or sins being exposed can be one of two things, embarrassment or accountability (or a combination of both). You either have so much pride that you cannot imagine others knowing your sin and fear it would cause embarrassment and humility; or, you are fearful that once other Christians do know your sin, then you will be held accountable by those friends or family and will have to change your ways in order to turn from that sin. Change does not come easy. This means your secret sin is no longer something you can hide or tuck away. When Christians love one another, they help hold one another accountable for their actions. This can be terrifying to a lot of believers. The thought of judgment and gossip floods our minds, holding us back from allowing God to humble us in the light. Galatians 1:10 says, “Am I saying this now to win the approval of people or God? Am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to serve people, I would not be God’s servant.” This is a great example of a sin we all have the tendency to fall into; seeking approval from people rather than God! So, in this case we must seek God’s approval first!

Why do I avoid God when I know I have unrepentant sin? Well, for me, I feel like sometimes I am either not ready to let go of the sin because I am getting something out of it; or, I am not willing to put the effort into changing. I refuse to die to self to gain His wisdom and understanding. I know it is wrong, I understand the consequences of my actions and thoughts, but selfishness takes hold and I lose grip of His wisdom and all together the desire to be in His presence. Proverbs 28:13 says, “He who conceals his transgressions will not prosper, but he who confesses and forsakes them will find compassion.” So, I have to let go of my pride, humble myself before the Lord and repent of my sins, turning from them so that I can receive the forgiveness that has been promised to me. 

So, what do we take away today from these shadows? Well, let’s always remember everyone has them! “For we have all sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.” You are not alone in your sin. But, we must always revert back to what the bible teaches. Romans 12:2 says, “Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.” So, today we will look at what the scriptures say about sin and repentance. Jesus said in John 8:12, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” So, it is as easy as that! LOL! No… but we can always strive to live the way Jesus did by studying the word to understand who Jesus was, how He behaved and what He left behind for the next generations to carry on. I want to end this time on a good note, because when we repent, the peace and joy that comes along with the grace God gifts us is so undeserving yet so sweet! John 1:5 says, “The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.” Good news! God is always going to be more powerful than Satan! He will always win! So, have no fear for the joy of the Lord is our strength!

Thank you so much for stopping by my blog today! I am so blessed to have the opportunity to do another necklace giveaway! This week we are going to do things a little differently. All you need to do to enter to win is comment on this blog about how you confront your shadows. Let’s build one another up in love and give some good advice on how we correct our sins, and how we keep from repeating them.

I will announce the winner on my Facebook Page (link to The Lesser Me Facebook on the right hand sidebar) next Tuesday at 8pm. Thanks again for stopping by, have a lovely week!

3 Comment

  1. There are many times when I don’t want to confront my shadows or sins because I don’t want to be judged by others if they are exposed and I feel like I would be humiliated or embarrassed. I know that everyone sins and there are some much worse than mine, but I still sin nonetheless. In order to confront my shadows I need God to expose my sins that I am unaware of and convict me of them. Then, I need to ask for his forgiveness and to learn from that sin in order not to commit it again and if it is committed again that I should feel convicted of it. Praying is a major way to confront my shadows and to move forward from them into the light. I really loved this blog because I feel like it will make me more aware of my shadows and needing to confront them and go into the light instead of hiding in them.

  2. This makes me think of one of my favorite shows scandal and how Olivia always says she wants to stand in the sun 😊I have learned that my shadows and sin steam from my thoughts when I’m stressed at work or overwhelmed with life in general . I have found that praying for patience and understanding every morning helps me get through my day with more peace. As always I love your blogs Amanda. I can always relate.

  3. Life sometimes can be difficult enough without scary shadows… so, I treat my “shadows” as if they are “toxic weeds” and just try not feed them.. Occasionally , because we have human nature some of these shadow weeds do spring forth… I P RAY ! Peace comes to me, I smile and feel so uplifted ! Always thanking our Heavenly Father and singing his praises……

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