As a stay at home mom, I actually stay at home A LOT! Other than church and grocery, the occasional errand, I am at home most days all day long. My entire day consists of reading books to my 4 year old, motivating my 10 year old to finish her home-school in a timely manner, taking my fully capable 4 year old to the potty 100 times a day (while I just stand there and watch her do it all by herself) because she insists she will not go without me, making food, cleaning up food, tripping over toys, laundry and any mess that gets trailed throughout our home. I am constantly doing all these tasks but I feel like all I do is busy work with no real gratifying feeling at the end of each day. I call this “cabin fever”: When I just need some God time and my kids won’t give me 30 minutes to really concentrate on the word of God. You may be wondering how I am able to type this right now! Well, I have been interrupted about 10 times in the process of writing this post! Today, perseverance is the only thing I have going for me! I am determined to finish it! Lol… this is exactly my point. I am now frustrated and annoyed by each interruption from my kids because that is ALL that has happened for the past few days! I am worn out. I am kidded out… I am in need of time alone. And as much as I would love to leave the house and go window shopping just for fun… I have too many things that need to be done around the house to do that. I sometimes feel stuck in my life. Sometimes the mundane is just exhausting. I feel like other people I know are constantly going out away from their homes… and I am always at home. At this point I obviously need a break… some quiet time with God… some alone time to just be still. This happens to me at least once a week. This week it just happens to be Tuesday… yes… Tuesday. Feeling needed is usually a wonderful feeling but today I am just feeling annoyed by my kid’s neediness. I am sure I cannot be the only mother out there that starts to feel this way. So… in order to keep myself in check when I start to feel this way I start look up all the the scriptures that God would want me to “run to” during these frustrating moments as a mother… scriptures to dwell on in my time of desperation as my 4 year old insists on interrupting my dire need to be the Word.
First, stop and pray.
Lord, You know my frustrations. You know I am about to lose my mind if Nora asks me to fill her cup one more time! You know how desperate I am for a moment of your wisdom, so please give it to me now! I am desperate for your word, for your guidance and encouragement when my flesh is screaming for attention. I love you Lord, and I want to be loving and caring and a good mother. Please give me the encouragement I need right now with your comfort and patience until the next time I get a chance to spend alone with you. Lord, you know my heart, you know I love my children and I don’t want to be snippy or annoyed with their neediness. Please replace the frustration with joy and knowledge of how blessed I am to be where I am today. I thank you for your love even in my sinfulness. I pray you would forgive me for failing today at being the mother you created me to be. Amen.
Next, when I get the time, I will sit and read scripture that will remind me of the calling the Lord has placed on each mother’s heart as a Christian.
Let’s start with the one area I doubt myself the most..motherhood…lol… it’s a good thing my girls are cute!
Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord,
the fruit of the womb a reward.
Like arrows in the hand of a warrior
are the children of one’s youth
Blessed is the man
who fills his quiver with them!
He shall not be put to shame
when he speaks with this enemies in the gate.
So, this is saying children are a gift; they are important in our spiritual warfare! He compares them to arrows in the hands of a warrior; the man who fills his quiver with arrows is blessed! Children who are raised by the word of God are actually weapons against the enemy! What! I mean sometimes I think Nora could scare anyone off just by being her crazy self… but I never considered my kids weapons against the enemy!
My husband and daughter have been getting into archery lately… so I am also learning more about it myself because I think it would be fun to have a hobby in common. I enjoy archery and what I enjoy even more is spending time with my husband! So, one of our friends from church makes long bows… and he let me borrow one that he made to practice with until I decide if I want to purchase one. When Jon brought this bow home, I noticed it was not bowed… the string had fallen off one side of the bow and was dangling down along the wood. I wondered to myself if Jon had broken it already (he has really bad luck with breaking borrowed things). Then Jon assured me we needed to just bend the bow to restring it. With the longbow you cannot just leave it bowed. It will put too much strain on the wood and eventually will ruin it. So, when you are not using the bow you remove the string from the end and let the wood part of the bow fall straight when you store it.
That got me thinking. When we are at our moment of “enough” we have obviously been stretched… bent… and we are stiff and uncomfortably stuck. We enter defensive mode and prepare for battle against Satan. And what did God give us as weapons? Children! Each child that is raised in the word, with the love of God, is like an arrow ready to attack Satan. Even more, blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them! So that means, believe it or not, the more kids the better! For those of you ladies who do not know what a quiver is, it is basically a purse that holds your arrows. I like to call this my home. So, here I am with a house full of kids, kids all day, kids all night, and I am sick of my little arrows? How ungrateful am I for this little army that is rising up to help me defeat the enemy at the gates! Instead of whining and complaining, I should be teaching and loving. Sometimes we just need a little God time to get the right perspective back. So, now I plan to scrape myself off the couch and get my “Captain Mommy” butt into gear and raise me up some sharp arrows with the word and love of God!
Isn’t God good? He can turn my attitude full circle with just three verses from the bible! That is what I call skill! If you are having one of those cabin fever moments, get those tools out and sharpen your arrows! Deuteronomy 6:6-7 says, “And these words that I command you today shall be on your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of then when you sit in your house, and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise.” So, even if you have cabin fever… remember the big picture; change your perspective, pray, and read the word! Get your “Captain Mommy” butt out there and train those little (or big) arrows. 🙂
Next Tuesday, I will be giving away this beautiful reminder necklace, to enter all you have to do is like my Facebook page (link on side bar to the right) The Lesser Me, and comment below about how you manage to get through the mundaneness of life without going crazy before you get to spend quiet time with God. I want to know your tricks! I need all the advice I can get, lol!